Eli was my first girlfriend. I was 15. A hardcore Christian (At that time.) And there I was falling for a 25 year old Turkish woman, who was crazy, passionate, and dangerous. We broke up after a year or so, but she still comes around every couple of months. Again, still very passionate and insane. very dangerous.

I've learned to get used of her existence in my life. Her erratic ways. She comes and she goes as she please. But I like her like that. But lately it's just been really boring. It use to excite me in a way that was of a different excitement. *shrugs* But lately it's really been boring. she comes around every 3 or 2 years or so. And this year, she's back. But it's so predictable now. I guess passion is just not enough anymore. What is it that matters now?

It's not convenience.
It's not creativity or having to talk about the same things.
It's not the passion.
What the heck am I looking/waiting for?

Haha. there's no one. It's fine. But I just had to admit/confess somewhere.
No, I don't think this is about her. But she did make me think.